Looking back, i think i became who i am today during maybe my mid-20’s. before that, i’m not really sure who i was… on the inside. to be honest, i’m pretty disappointed in my pre-me self. like, i want to go back in time and smack myself in the face repeatedly and take away my internet privileges and all my pens. i want to have a serious talk with myself about preparing for my future, working hard, getting the most out of college, not being petty and stupid.  anyways, here’s a poem i’m just writing like right now to express my feelings on the matter. i hope you like it…

In retrospect, i’m not as cool as i thought i was.

or is.

or am i?

i found my old diary. the entries were lame.

so lame.

its embarrassing.

i cared too much about what you thought.

why did i care?

i dont.

but i used to. i think i still might. a little.

sometimes.

but not as much.

farita farasita farimama… so many names for me

all waiting for hi’s

instead of hi’ing

so many names. what for? who was i trying to be?

someone cooler than me

someone not me

it’s obvious now. but in retrospect, i should have…

i could have…

why didn’t i?

for now, i’m OK with who i am today.

but a little bit more ME

would be nice.

whatever that means. In retrospect…

The End.

Discuss.